Understanding the status of our relationship

Discussion in 'Does She Like Me?' started by Mabalzich, May 7, 2017.

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Interested?

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  1. Mabalzich

    Mabalzich New Member

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    Hello everyone, thanks for taking the time to read this. I'm in need of some insight and viewpoint from outsiders because I'm confused what's going on and how to proceed.

    So me and a colleague have over about 8 months developed quite a close bond. Out of all the colleagues she spends most of her time alongside me and it has progressed over time where she now feels in total comfort with me to share personal details (was very anxious at the start of her employment). She has opened up a lot to me about her underlying issues and battles with self-esteem, depression and general mental health. I've taken an interest in subjects she likes to make sure she always has something to talk to me about as she has a fear she will run out of things of interest to discuss to the point she says she doesn't text often and wants to keep things to talk about when face to face with people. I've offered advice and opinions on things she does / plans, been stern with my viewpoints and acted quite camp / feminine as girls of a nervous disposition feel more comfortable with someone who is silly / camp.

    To summarize her character I'd say once she gets comfortable around people she becomes herself no matter who you are but to my knowledge I don't believe she has been this open to any other male staff member, so I sense a bit of trust there between us. She's an extremely friendly and enthusiastic individual when you get to know her but can be quite recluse/shy at first meetings. Below I'll start sharing some of the moments over time which makes me question what is happening.

    She was previously close to another male staff member for a few short months but him leaving and me taking over his hours (me and her still worked together just not for as long as now) and it means we get to spend a lot of time together and I'd say I've probably become one of few heterosexual males shes in constant contact with currently, hasn't been on a date since I've known her, deals with girlfriends mainly.

    So the first instance where my interest piqued was when we were discussing finding partners, it was me, her and another female colleague talking and when my attention was diverted to attend to a customer (still in close proximity) I heard our colleague friend saying: "Nooooo... hes really old." and ".. but he has no hair". I didn't hear a name being mentioned but I am older than her and have a skinhead so my initial reaction was it was in reference to me, however we also have two more colleagues older and lacking hair such as myself and it could of easily been one of them. However at this point is where I began to analyze and take note of things my colleague did around me. That same day I was working alongside a male colleague and she mentioned my name, looking over she was grinning widely and she said she'd been smiling/looking at me for the past five minutes (exaggeration), this only added to my intrigue.

    Then over the Christmas period we bonded more and we were in our canteen with other staff members, we were playing a game where I had to guess what was being drawn on my skinhead. She started with my name, then did a + she asked me did I know what that was and at the time I said a cross, then she continued and drew her own name and then a :) - later I realized it could of meant me + her :) When I was leaving one afternoon before them (very rarely happens) we had xmas music on in the background and she mentioned it was not a good song to leave on (she likes ones like all I want for Christmas is you) and her friend said "It's not like you won't see him again." And when it was xmas eve I wished her a happy Christmas and extended my hand for her to shake but she lunged forward and hugged me.

    During the early new year I created a card for her that was quite personal and inspirational because she was quite depressed, she loved the card to the point she told everyone about it, shared it on social media with a message like " The cutest thing I've ever received *Angel emoji* " and even came into work with her friend telling people and called me a sweetheart. Her mom said to me: "You need to stop being nice to ' X ', I want her to go to university, she'll never leave." This was such a random thing to say but it wasn't said harshly, I feel maybe my colleague gets attached to people and finds goodbyes difficult.

    The following days after the receiving of the card her social media posts became quite love related, the word love in Chinese writing with a seductive look/pose on Instagram, posts with love hearts around her head etc. And with girls I tend to feel they always do something on social media to express how they currently feel be it re-tweets, posts, likes etc.

    Regarding me dating, I got myself a date and when she found out and within ~30 minutes went quite cold, said she was in a mood (thought nothing of it, girls and moods are not rare). That same day after she left from work on her Twitter feed she re-tweeted something posted a month ago which was a sheep to Marilyn Monroe with the text "Who Is She?" and the video was "I wanna be loved by you, just you, And nobody else but you, I wanna be loved by you, alone! Boop-boop-a-doop!" And she was very eager to find out how the date went the next time I saw her. Could be nothing but its a bit of a co-incidence.

    Valentines come around and tbh I didn't do anything for it but the next time I worked with one of my older gay colleagues who is also close to this girl came to me and said to me "You didn't get ' x ' a valentines card." He saw her the day after and obviously it must of cropped up.

    Some of the things she does around me constantly are:

    • I have tattoos on my arms and shave them so they are smooth, she knows this and its visible just from looking that they are shaven and yet always says quite often on our days working together "do you still shave your arms?" but while saying this always goes in for psychical contact on my forearms. Usually stroking my arm for 5-10 seconds.
    • When talking to me she occasionally stops what she is doing and gives me full attention and faces me, she also sometimes tends to fiddle with objects, like you would jerk your knee if nervous.
    • She likes to get quite close to me at times while working, sure its unavoidable at times but there is a personal space with everyone and yet she likes to get quite close.
    • Used to but not often anymore make meow noises directed at me.
    • I have a skinhead and she randomly without asking just puts her hand on my scalp and strokes me lol
    • Never really pays me compliments or appreciation but is the first to offer it to other colleagues when I'm around. Spark a reaction from me maybe? I don't know.
    • She has started going for high-fives a lot usually always starting with me.
    • Sometimes talks to me about how no boys ask her out, shes tired of her appearance. Maybe looking for me to compliment her / gratification / acceptance? She does seem to have low self-esteem.
    • She'll regularly come into the shop out of hours she works to simply pick up a single chocolate bar, could be genuine but also could be an excuse to see people. I wouldn't personally go to a shop that's ~5 mins away for a £0.60 chocolate bar. Also has recently started to wait to be served by me even though numerous self-service machines are free and she could be gone in a matter of seconds.
    • Quite often does that hair ear tuck thing girls do when speaking with me while looking down.
    • Used to get very anxious around me to the point her eyes watered and it looked like she was upset, no longer the case now.
    • After days we work together sometimes posts on social media stories or likes post relating to songs / statuses regarding love, romance etc. TLC If I Was Your Girlfriend, Whitney Houston album all about relationships/love etc.

    When mentioning about resuscitation and the kiss of life my gay colleague said ' X ' will give me the kiss of life while she was in proximity and never said that she wouldn't, usually girls jump to correct people if they absolutely would not.

    She got me a card for my birthday and used things like dear rather than to and lots of love at the end with like 10 kisses. And she pointed out to me the back of the card where it said and where she vocally said out loud "KissMeYouFool" which is the card maker or whatever.

    I've been trying to analyze all this over the time we've known each other and I still can't figure out if she sees me as a dear dear male friend or a potential boyfriend, I know for a fact from colleagues they've discussed she does seem to like older men. I've never been good at getting inside women's heads, I could genuinely be mis-reading everything happening and it could be that she is just too friendly. But if I bring this to a head and discuss it with her it could potential ruin the relationship we have already.

    I would love to to ask her out purely platonic for the foreseeable as she is younger but she does bring me lots of laughter & joy, plus we act stupid together and seem to enjoy one anothers company.

    Thanks again for reading and any insight is appreciated.
     
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  2. Nancy

    Nancy Well-Known Member

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    One of two things has happened here:

    1) You are a lesbian women who is has incorrectly filled out your profile that says you are a 30 year old male.

    or

    2) You are a 30 year old male who has found a site created solely for women who are attracted (be they lesbian, bisexual or however they like to identify) and have decided to ask us whether your heterosexual flirtings mean anything.

    We're a friendly lot here but I am intrigued to know why you came here for advice if it is option 2 and not option 1.
     
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  3. Mabalzich

    Mabalzich New Member

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    Omg hahaha! To be honest I simply searched in google for a forum which discusses these type of things and signed up, I honestly never even bothered to look.

    A moderator can delete this topic from your message board. :p
     
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  4. Kaorin

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    Yeah, this site is for lady-loving-ladies, but hey, I think you should make a move. Ask her out for coffee sometime? ☺️
     
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  5. Mabalzich

    Mabalzich New Member

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    Thanks Kaorin. I have decided to ask her out. She makes me happy and I enjoy every moment with her so why not. If its meant to be its meant to be, if not then at least I'd of known I tried.

    I wish you all the luck finding love ladies! xx
     
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