What is it a "coming out" girls? How is it to be done? And when? I mean.. I am getting completely lost in "this L world" I got in touch with and now, I am spending a lot of time thinking about me, my past, my present, my everything.. But found no answer yet.. So, I can't avoid asking me: is there any response out in space, or life, sometimes, just brings into play the most and it's up to us to decide what to let it and what to let out? Why am I writing this way? Cause I thought was walking peacefully along my way (straight way with a companion), when she stepped out unexpectedly and there I found myself (over time) to have to admit to be feeling confused: do I like girls? Am I bisexual? (both to myself, my man and the LGBT common friends I shared with SHE).. I would love not to feel this way, believe me. but no matter how hard I try, as soon as I let down the guard, whop! here we come and so I find myself thinking of her: what would I have done if.. (as someone of you already asked me), what did I expect from, but above all, what I was left by this adventure? An amazing set of sensations was left! An open door on a new whole personal dimension which scares me as much as it attracts me! This crush made me feel at last in contact with myself, also in the group of friends I could finally be myself without being teased or feel observed for being a boyish woman. The "problem" now is that I find myself pleased by ( = attracted, curious, wondering about bodies, sex with..) a similar (to HER) type of woman (butch style) and thus I can not comprehend if this is only a "leftover" of the disappointment I got from her or if that is about a side of my personality that I kept closed in for years.. I know that for many of you hearing such things could seem impossible, but there was no internet when I was a teenager but a strong family and religious environment where girls had to be girls and boys had to be boys. I still recall (very well) the pain when classmates in secondary school where mocking me because of my look and passions (soccer, war games, fishing, hard-work, hockey..) Just unbelievable to many today.. And now? Now I regularly attend the gym and wear short black hair. How do I feel? Like never before!! I adore everything about my look and my body. I feel greater with myself and with my thoughts now that ten years ago. And although sometimes I regret not having felt this way before, I guess there is always a reason in things and perhaps this was the right time to "grow", this the city, this the new environment. In any case, I need to figure out who I am. What should I do girls? How can I say/state/find out if this looking at girls feeling strange is just such a time, or if all these changes occurred really do mean anything? I still find men attractive, so if it were, I would be bisexual.. Twice as many emotions to handle so? Two parallel universes to choose? Oh mine, what a mess..!