Hi all, this is my first post here. Please be gentle. I am 37 and have only in the past year come to realize that I am not straight. I am married, with 2 kids- 6 and 9. My marriage has been struggling for about a year, with my husband struggling with depression and trauma. We have also struggled financially. Oh and we have not had sex in over a year. I had sexual play with other girls as a child but have never had any sexual experiences with women. In the past year, the desire to have sexual contact with a woman is overwhelming. When I dream, it’s about kissing women. When I watch tv I want to watch women together romantically. I have read old threads on here about others experiences similar to mine. I recently told a close friend about my situation and she was very supportive. I live in a small town and some of my family are religious and homophobic. I need to tell my husband how I feel as it is eating me up inside. I have hope that he is not completely oblivious, after all he knows I am deeply in love with Nicole daSilva of the tv show Wentworth lol I think he knows our marriage is not good and that it could be ending. I’m very worried about my children, who are very sheltered in a not at all diverse community. We have been to the local Pride parade as a family and have taught acceptance, but I don’t want to create homophobic kids cause my sexuality could break up our family. Sorry for the long rant. Any positive/ real advice/ shared stories would be greatly appreciated.