I think i might be bisexual and deep in the closet, I met this girl a year ago who is in the same major as me. We instantly hit it off and become very good friends. We're in our last year studying Chemical engineering. She is very intelligent and a total geek. She doesn't really care about how she dressed, and I'm more feminine and outgoing. She is very shy and generally don't like to have any physical contact with people. But on the other hand, I'm a very touchy-feely person and a major flirt. I love showing my affections through physical contacts such as hugging, holding hands, and cuddling, and she is completely fine with me with doing that to her. At first I only see her as a good friend, but then things get out of hand when i started regularly asking for kisses on the cheeks and hold hands everywhere we go. She was always reluctant at first, but always gave in to it. These intimate contacts triggered me to develop romantic feeling for her and right before the summer ends, I gave her flowers and finally asked for a kiss on the lips. I was surprised she actually let me kissed her. It was her first kiss. It was the shortest kiss I've ever had because I was very nervous and my heart pumped really fast, so I pulled away instantly as soon as i made contact with her lips. I thought my feeling was reciprocated and started to act more like a couple. I started being more touchy and showing my affections in public, but she always feel very uncomfortable and pull me away. She also refused to kiss me on the lip ever since our first kiss, but was willing to give kisses on the cheeks. She came from a very conservative family and she's always very sensitive about what other people think of her. When people started asking her questions if we are together and she always gets upset and said no. We've been on many dates, or at least i consider them to be because I always hold her hands everywhere we go, even when driving ( very dangerous, I know). But then one day, at the end of our date I tried to make her admit her feeling towards me but she denies and said that she doesn't like me "that way" and proceed to act clueless to all those couple-like things we've done. I was heart broken. I didn't ask why, I just played along and pretended like i was just fooling around because I'm a very touchy person and just want to experiment. I don't want to admit to her that I'm bi and have feelings for her. I just let it go and acted like nothing happened... Every time when I try to confront her if she is bisexual, she would cry and became upset. I don't know whats on her mind, but i never asked. I assured her not to worry because I don't like her "that way" either, but it doesn't seem to make her feel any better. I'm very confused right now, I just want to know if she likes me or if she is straight like she claimed herself to be. I don't want to make a fool of myself and confesses my feelings for her if she doesn't like me back. I really don't want to sabotage our friendship. I wish I can convince myself that she's straight so I can move on with my life and find someone else. I would really like some advice. I literally just made an account today for this. Haha..