As has so often happened for me, I've fallen for a straight girl. It really sucks. The last girl I had a sudden crush on was my yoga teacher, but I was able to take classes with other teachers and get over it eventually. Unfortunately, this time it's the manager at my new job, so I can't avoid her. What do I do? I hate that I feel this way. The second day I came into work I was just suddenly attracted to her, and I'm trying to ignore it, but I can't help being attracted to her. She's a very friendly, touchy-feely type, which makes it even worse. Today, she put her hand on my cheek to show me how cold it was and electric waves went across my skin. I also can't help flirting with her, and I'm really trying not to, but I do it unconsciously. When I'm talking to her or with her and someone else, I can't help making fun of her or joking around with her. Which people usually do when they like someone. I'm really trying not to flirt, but I just can't help liking her. And I don't want to because she's very straight. For one thing, she talks about the hot guys at the bar, and for another thing, she's kind of seeing this guy who's abroad most of the year so it's complicated, but she likes him. So, regardless of her status, she's into guys. And she's my boss, so even if she were magically single and gay (heaven forbid something like that ever happening for me), it would still be a sticky situation. What do I do???!! Each time I go to work I can't help having feelings for her, then I go home and employ my best tactics to forget/repress/ignore those feelings, but the moment I go back into work and talk to her, I start to like her. It's like the opposite of injecting a drug, it feels amazing for a second to have that crush feeling, then I feel completely horrible because I feel like a creep, I know she isn't and can never be interested, and I have to struggle with being that attracted. Another thing, I rarely fall for people, but when I do I fall really hard. And by people, I mean girls. Shit. This sucks!! Well, thanks for reading this and if you have ANY advice it would be appreciated. I also come from a loving and religious family who has no idea I'm gay, but if they found out they would still love me but be disgusted. Which is even worse. And I am obviously struggling with my sexuality, but that's another topic. Thank you for reading!