Hi! I'll give you some information about myself. I'm almost 21 years old. I live in a flat with 3 friends. I'm a good student, I have a lot of carring friends and I feel like my life is pretty great at the moment. I had 2 serious relationships. I'm still friends with both of my exes and we see each other as often as we can. I'm very grateful that they are still in my life. I love them both and it makes me happy to still be around them even after our relationships ended. After my second relationship ended, I had a few crushes here and there, but nothing serious. After a while, I met a girl and I liked her. She liked me back. She told me that her ex was beating her and cheating on her and I was ready to treat her like she deserves and make her forget about her ex gf. She asked me to be her gf and when I was ready to say yes, she told me she went back to her abussive gf. I felt heartbroken and I felt like I was the foolest person alive. I moved on and hanged out with my friends and soon, I felt better. After a while, I met this other girl. We hanged out and she kissed me and I felt like my heart had another chance to beat again. I was really into her and she was really into me. She was sweet and carring and when I slept over, she always made sure I was warm and covered and she never stopped holding me during the night. But, she told me she doesn't want a relationship. I respected that and we went to a party in the same night. Suddenly, she disappeared with a girl, leaving me there alone. After a few days, they started dating and they are now gfs. This last event happened a few days ago. I'm pretty hurt and sad and I feel like maybe it's my fault that these girls hurt me. I feel like, even though I was nothing but nice to them, something in my behaviour might have drawn them away. I know I have low self esteem. People tell me that I'm hot and smart and funny and all that, but I don't see myself to be like the person they are describing. Now, I met this girl and we went out once. I wouldn't call it a date, but I think she saw it this way. She is hot and smart and really lovely. She was a bit awkward when we went out and I asked her why she acted like this. She replied "becase I FUCKING LIKED YOU!". I was really surprised that this girl would feel so nervous around me. I feel like sooner or later, she will back off too, so I'm not even that excited that she likes me that much. Problem is, I don't know how to feel better about myself. Everytime a nice girl likes me, I mentally start to make a list of reasons of why I wouldn't be right for her. I never seem to start making a list of why we would work out. I really want to feel confident. I don't want to become a cocky person, but I do want to wake up one day and be like "GOD, I'M AWESOME!". Well, not really like that, but you get my point. So, I want you guys to help me. If you know any tips that will help getting more confident, I will really appreciate it if you will share them with me.