Ok so I am a biological female who is lesbian. When my mom was pregnant the ultrasound said I was a boy but when she delivered me, it tuened out I was a girl! (Old technology) I have 5 brothers so I have always been more boyish etc. I don't dress that tom boy, more femme/sometimes adrogonous. But here's my crisis: I have always felt like I should have a dick. I have major penis envy and I wish I did not. I absolutely love my feminine features (breasts, bum, vagina) BUT I have also always felt as if I should also have a penis? So I have always tended to fall for straight girls and they have always ended up attracted to me which is problematic. Except funny thing is, the woman I have been with for a year now only used to date men until she met me. We both fell madly in love and she doesn't like labels but she would call herself bisexual. So because I have gender issues, I get stupid thoughts in my head that she wishes I had a penis. Even though she has told me she loves me for me(a female) loves my vagina and actually wouldnt like if I had a penis because then it wouldn't be me. I have always had this issue of feeling like I should have a penis but I think it has got worse. My girlfriend loves to give me oral but for some reason I can't cum from it because I get off to the thought of her sucking me off? Yes I do have a strap on so Ive thought about getting her to suck the strap but she said she doesnt like that because she wants to taste me and loves my vagina. We have amazing sex nonetheless and I love everything about it. The main issues for me is that I scare myself in the sense that we'll be watching a movie where it shows a guys penis and I'll immediately get mad and have rage in my head because I'm jealous. What do you guys think? You see I've thought about transitioning but I never would actually want to because I love all my other features it's just that I have major penis envy?