Her hand trailed down from my hip as she touched me intimately. My breathing became erratic causing Nat to shift next to Ellen, she turned over to face the wall pulling the sheets with her in her slumber. I tore myself quickly away from Ellen clarity hitting me like a brick wall. "I don't think this is allowed if SHE isn't conscious!" "I can't help it Lex". "Well try harder, for fucks sake, she's right there. Don't play with me Ellen, you're just messing with my head!" "Lex.....I". "Go to sleep Ellen!!" The next morning I woke, disorientated. I turned finding deep brown eyes watching me. Ellen laid with her arm tucked underneath her head gazing at me intently. "Hey, you". "Hi". I blinked uncertainty creasing my brow. I remained silent, testing how the mood was in the room. I suddenly became very aware that I was naked and it caused me to squirm inwardly. "You okay?" "I'm fine". I said shortly. "You look beautiful when you sleep you know?" "Where's Nat?" I uttered ignoring her comment. "She's making breakfast if you're hungry". I nodded turning onto my back, breaking her gaze. I drifted off, deep in thought. Ellen reached out and touched my arm shaking me from my daze, "do we need to talk about last night?" I turned and looked her directly in the eyes uneasiness clouding the air, "no, it was just sex." I lied. "What's to talk about? I shouldn't have done it, I will never get Che back now, but whatever, that doesn't affect you? does it? So no, we don't need to talk about it". I suddenly became very aware I was naked. I sat up and looked around for my top. I spotted it on the floor by the door. I stood up and walked over to it as confidently as I could muster and scooped it up. I folded it briefly and placed it with my other clothes. I grabbed the towels Nat had left on the side and got in the shower. I needed to wash the scent of them off me. I needed to wash away the memories of last night. I dried myself quickly and pulled on my clothes. I glanced quickly at Ellen still lying in bed as I passed back through the room. She opened her mouth to speak to me but thought better of it. I averted my gaze and headed downstairs. I met Nat in the kitchen and she smiled at me brightly no hint of regret or embarrassment, "do you want some breakfast Lex?" "No, thanks. I need to get home". I said coolly. Her smile faltered, "everything ok?" "Yeah, I've just got to go". I grabbed my jacket and keys and headed out the door without turning back. I eventually made it home not quite realising how I got there. I sat on my sofa burying my head in my hands. My phone that I had left in the draw the night before lay beeping and vibrating away. I opened the draw reluctantly and noted I had 5 missed calls from Che and 3 text messages. I sighed deeply, anxiety building in my stomach. I clicked to open the messages and read them quickly. "Lex, I'm sorry. I didn't mean what I said. Please answer the phone. xCx" "Lex, please! I should never have told you I wanted a break. I miss you!" "Lex, I swear if you don't answer your phone i'll just come round, we need to talk!" I cursed aloud glancing at the clock as the doorbell rang out setting my stomach into a nervous panic. I clutched my head as it pounded with the reminence of my hangover. I knew che had a key so I waited for her to let herself in. I heard her footsteps nearing and I kept my head in my hands. "Lex, I'm sorry I.......what the fuck happened to you?" I looked up at her my head suddenly very sore, "I had one too many drinks". "Are you still in last nights clothes?" She asked her tone acusatory.