My friends rejoiced when I woke up from a delusion and realized that my 3-year irrational love for someone who lives a thousand miles away from me was going nowhere. I couldn't understand how I fell hard for someone I just conversed with for barely an hour before her flight going home. It was crazy. Except for the I miss yous and how are yous,we barely talked online. I got tired with just fb likes and flattery that I sometimes doubted her sincerity. We have a lot of things in common--books we both read, music we both like, and films we both adore--but we didn't pass the fb likes and the I miss yous stage. I enrolled in grad school to keep myself busy. I wanted to learn and make new friends. On my first day of class, I saw a familiar face--a former schoolmate. I had a little crush on her before but we never had time to talk. I approached her and I was surprised when she called me by my first name. She's pretty, smart, funny, and kind. The first time we talked, it lasted for more than an hour. I don't really consider myself funny but she smiled and laughed at things I said (even if I wasn't even joking). We've been inseparable since then. I enjoy her friendship and I can feel that the feeling is mutual. Awkward eye contact remains a problem but being able to hold a decent conversation for hours is,I think,a good sign. We talk about books,films,food,music,family,sleeping habits,healthy lifestyle, etc.....anything under the sun. I like her. The only problem is, she's waiting for MR. Right. What if her Mr. Right shows up? I don't want to be left alone. What should I do? I enjoy her company so much but I don't want to experience another heartache. I think of her every day and it's not good because daydreaming makes me less productive. I can't concentrate on my studies. Should I distance myself and make friends with other people (like say hi to my friendly butch classmate or to the girl I constantly catch staring at me) so as to temporarily take my mind off her? Being with her is never a waste of time but spending every free time I have with her means zero time for other things/people. I hope you can help me resolve this issue. P.S. I don't think she knows I'm gay.