So much to say, not sure what to say. Having slept with one guy once then meeting my husband at the age of 19 I've only had the two sexual relationships, one being him. Being together for 28 years with my husband it really felt like a great friendship with many adventures involved. Yes I loved him, but along the way he asked for divorce not once but twice (so why did I stay, not sure) third time lucky we are now divorced. I have two beautiful girls from this marriage. Anyway whilst married I meet a lady whom I became really great bff's with, but I knew from the moment I met her where my heart was. I have never felt so alive and never realised that someone could hit your soul the way she made me feel. Her marriage was basically over so we spent a lot of time together. Hence I fell head over heels in love and in that time even managed to win a trip to Europe (oh so romantic). When we arrived home from Europe things changed (she had other family issues), I could feel the push away. Her first love boyfriend popped up out of the blue and things really happened fast between them. She is with him and married happily. We are still good friends now. I cant see myself with another guy because it just felt so right being with a woman in every way and alot of memories and small things in life just clicked. I'm hoping to meet someone again, scared, excited, but most women I see are half my age, so I'm thinking am I to old at 50 to find that love again.