I've never been with a guy. I had a bf at 14 who I had been initially really into. In fact, he was the only boy I had ever had feelings for. But when he went in to kiss me once, I suddenly felt ill, pulled away and dumped him one week later. Apart from that, I have always been turned on sexually by guy parts [though, again, have never been with a guy because I never wanted the intimacy -kissing, hugging, etc]. I've always loved women and have only imagined my future with women. I haven't noticed guys since that one at age 14. Recently, however, I began to feel like I wanted to hook up with a guy friend (just sexual). I figured it was because I was in that ovulating phase when I'm usually just.. wanting *it* a lot in general...But now, I'm wondering if I'm actually beginning to have some type of feelings for him. It's not with the same intensity that I have felt for girls. But I'm finding myself jealous, wanting his attention, and I'm finding that I do think about him at various times through the day. I don't know what it is. Maybe I just really want to be friends [with benefits]. He supposedly liked me in the past and I was far from the idea. Far. Far from it. I wanted nothing to do with him at all.... and his breath smelled. [Maybe I simply have missed the attention?] I feel more willing to flirt with guys in general lately and feel like I wouldn't mind one to cuddle. I am noticing a lot more guys who seem cute and cuddle-able.This is so different for me. I don't know if this is some momentary change in hormones? Through the past, I had always felt like hugging guys was like hugging rocks and I never cared much if they were thinking about me or what they were thinking about me. Have any of you ever begun to feel curious about guys like this? I don't seem to like them enough to be in a relationship with them...but obviously, there's something suddenly there and I'm very confused about it. And honestly, I would be afraid to try pursuing it. I'm 22. Thanks.